Destiny .....

Assalamualaikum..

*flashBackAugust2012*

Today is sunday and it's Ramadhan . Puasa tahun nie rasa nak buat kelainan sikit macam dalam novel 'Contengan Jalanan' by Hlovate tuh.
Actually I've got a news. BIG news.

nampak tak perkataan Withdrawal from CFS IIUM?

Baru seminggu saya merasa hidup sebagai pelajar program 2 tahun. Baru saja saya menghabiskan duit RM100 demi nak drop subjects sebab saya dah give up dengan life as an 1 year prog student. And suddenly saya dapat call katakan saya dapat further studies at middle east. Teramat sedih. Teramat terkejut! Teramat tak sangka sebab dah putus harapan nak sambung belajar kat oversea. Dah mula Redha bahawa I'm one of the BioSc student. aiya...

Satu minggu tahan air mata pergi kelas. Pendam segala rasa segala perasaan . Kunci mulut rapat-rapat. Allah je yang tahu betapa peritnya hati. Only my roomates je yang tau sepanjang malam for almost a week empangan pecah! Setiap kali bangun pagi, bengkak mata sampai pernah one of my close classmate tanya,

  "Aisyah, awk nangis ke?" 

harharhar. Cengeng kan? I've no one to talk to. No one to hear my sadness. NO ONE! Family? Mereka akan lebih risau kalau dapat tahu keadaan saya. Besties? Saya malas nak bebankan mereka with my remeh-temeh problems. They have their own problems too. So why do I have to bother them with mine? BUT I have Allah. HE always with me. 

Actually, banyak lagi perkara yang berlaku. Ujian Allah buat hambaNya. Tapi saya Redha . This is the best for me. Allah knows it.

I've once one of them ;'(

 To my classmates, TQ for everything. Sumpah aku sedih gila kena tinggal korang. Korang memang awesome!

my lepak girls.

Rasa serba salah sangat-sangat sebab tak bagitau my lepak girls about my withdrawal thingy. The sad moments is when saya jalan-jalan with my roomate pusing uia for the last time sambil air mata mengalir sebab macam tak percaya je semua nie. I LOVE IIUM. and sambil berjalan, terserempak dengan afifah and husna.

" Aje, jadi ea petang nie iftar kat Mid Valley! Asal ka nangis? ka kenapa? " -Afifah

"jadi-jadi. tak ada lah. Aku just pusing2 uia for the last ti..... *cover* " - me

"Asal last pula? ka nak pergi mana? " -Afifah

T.T

Terharu yang teramat bila my lepak girls celebrated our 2 month masuk uia and my last day.  Siap belanja Big Apple lagi. *mereka dah tahu sebenarnya tapi mereka sembunyikan. Mereka nak saya juga bagitau*

"Aje, asal aku orang last yang tahu?" - Afifah

"sebab aku tak nak ka sedih." - me *sebak*

To Afifah , sorry sebab baitau ka lambat. Aku tak sanggup nak cakap yang aku bakal tinggalkan ka . Seriously , aku tersangat sedih. Best dapat jadi kawan ka. Thanks for this awesome 2years 2months friendship. Semoga berkekalan ;)

To Husna, TQ sebab jadi kawan yang awesome! selalu bagi support kat aku. selalu datang bilik aku .

To Amalin, TQ for those memories. Sorry for everything.

To Afiqah, TQ sbb memahami aku. Sorry sebab aku memang suka kacau orang ;)

To my Roomates and jiranku, TQ bagi something kat aku. Aku sampai tak tidur malam last tuh sebab sedih sangat nak tinggal korang .

Aku sayang korang ketat-ketat! Jangan lupa aku . All the best in life!

When you said ; It is too difficult 

Allah says,  " Verily with every hardship, there is relief " 

[Insyirah : 6]

When you said ; No one can help me

Allah says, " Be patient. For your patience is with the help of Allah " 

[An-Nahl : 127]

When you said ; I don't have enough sustenance 

Allah says, " Those who believe and work righteousness , for them is forgiveness and a sustenance most generous " 

[Al-Hajj : 50]

When you said ;  I am overwhelmed

Allah says, " If Allah helps you, none can overcome you... "

[Al-Imran : 60]

When you said ; I always feel ill

Allah says, " And We send down of the Quran as a healing and a mercy to those who believe "

[Al-isra' : 82]

When you said ; I am struggling

Allah says, " Allah will not burden you more than you can bear "

[Baqarah : 286]

p/s: Alhamdulillah, saya dapat pinjaman from Yayasan negeri. heeeee^^
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