Please don't feel free to read this entry as this is nothing to do with you guys.
Sebuah entry untuk mereleasekan tension seketika.
#ExamWeek
Assalamualaikum
This is the second one.
I don't no why,
but I really need a place to keep calm.
I'm sorry if this entry annoyed anyone.
Because this is my blog.
And I don't ask anyone to follow it.
That's why I never post this blog public.
Only people I trust know the existing of this blog.
So sorry readers...
It's getting harder.
and I must become stronger!
Senang bagi mereka berkata-kata
Hanya yang berada dikasut saya yang faham
Medic's life isn't FUN!
Medic's life make you feel like giving upppppppppp!
and STUDY ABOARD isn't FUN tooo.
Please be grateful in what you have.
You may cakap
"Untung la study oversea."
Dan saya nak tanya,
APA YANG UNTUNGNYA?
Jauh dengan famili. Untungkah?
Hidup berdikari. Untungkah?
Nak adapt dengan situasi. Take a lot of time. Untungkah?
Di anak tirikan after grad oleh negara sendiri. Untungkah?
Diperlekehkan oleh rakyat disini. Untungkah?
No one taking care of you and no one mind your business. Untungkah?
Problems with your house, housemates, friends. Untungkah?
BUT
Alhamdulillah
Allah choose me
As HE wants me to be more stronger in the future.
As He know that this is the best for me.
Ya Allah, Berikanlah hambaMU ini kekuatan untuk menimba ilmuMU .
Ya Allah, Jadikanlah aku seorang hamba yang bersyukur dengan segala nikmatMU.
Exam End of Module?
Hanya mampu geleng kepala dan berdoa pada Allah.
Dapat lulus pon jadilah.
Markah lulus saja pon dah 60%.
Kalau fail, kena reset paper.
Ya Allah, minta jauh.
Semester 2 bakal bermula.
Dengan Module yang lagi tough.
Mampukah aku meneruskan perjuangan ini?
Skyping with my mom.
as I want to cry.
But whenever I saw her face smiling at me,
I couldn't do that.
Deep inside my heart,
There's storm and heavy rain
How I really wish to show them how hard am I here
Suffering.
feeling like give up.
crying out badly.
and Yes, I know that Allah is the best Listener.
I trust on HIM.
But still,
I need someone to comfort me.
I need someone to support what I'm doing right now.
I want someone to keep me on this route.
My mom said that she glad that I'm okay here.
Not crying like a little girl.
Telling her that I want to go home.
Just like when I having a hard time during SPM at Pekan.
You just don't know, mom.
This smile is just a fake one.
Just to make sure you don't worry about me.
p/s: This entry is written as I'm in stress mood for exam preparation .
It's Biochemistry.
Only mereka yang dah belajar biochem yang memahami situasi ini.
Hope for the best.
2 comments:
dear,
be strong as you are.banyakkan ingat kepada Allah..i know you can do better.i know your power is strong.keep holding on k.do your best on exam :)
^_^ inshaa Allah aje. Belajar memang susah. Just kne bykkan lagi sabar. Serah pada Allah. Yang penting kalau nak jadi doctor, niat kita betul betul nak tolong orang. Bila niat kita baik, inshaa Allah Allah mudahkan jalan. Usaha lagi ^_^ buat yang kita mampu. Yang lain biar Allah setlekan. Hehe good luck there k.
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